Adult Situations

When was my last update? I didn't check before I clicked the 'New Post' button. Surely it's been more than two days, right? Well yesterday was quite busy. I did not have trouble falling asleep, even though I went to sleep at 3AM... That's actually quite the accomplishment. I'd woken up that day at 1AM and took a nap from 3 to 4; my boyfriend's phone call is what woke me. We spent the rest of that day together. And me actually doing things the whole day besides, ya know, camping out on the couch, well, I guess it helped me to fall asleep.

What's with my blog title? My boyfriend has been smoking weed since he was thirteen.. everyday... several times a day. Yep, an addict. Well, he's 22 now (since January) and going to bar tending school. He decided he couldn't take it anymore. Starting February, he'd break up with Mary Jane. It had to be done. Of course, I was totally supportive of the idea. Lots of kids I know smoke here and there, but with him, it was different. I wanted to be his girl. His one and ONLY girl. How could I compete with MaryJ? They've been insperable for NINE YEARS. I couldn't let that bitch win!

I also couldn't get him to stop myself. I have tried. It has caused squabbles. But I know a thing or two about addiction. I am a cutter. I haven't cut in a year, but it's a day to day struggle. It was first a coping mechanism. But since I am Bi Polar, and a Pisces, I just have way too many feelings. So it became a way of life. I couldn't cry. I couldn't cry ever. And people had tried to make me promise I'd stop. They didn't understand. I couldn't.

Well... i thought I couldn't. Nothing is impossible. I firmly believe that. So anyways, I let him be. He would have to see for himself why it wasn't good for him. And you know what? He did.

We went back to my place at 10PM. I helped him study. He was visibly struggling. Understandable. It was a long day. So I put the flash cards down, and he went to the bathroom. He came back shaking. He wanted to go home, and I wouldn't let him. I love him. It hurt so bad to watch him feeling like shit. He was not going anywhere. He agreed to stay, and we watched half of the Time Traveler's Wife (my pick). He was cold and had to wrap his coat around him. But I noticed his face was flushed. Yup... he was burning up. During the movie his stomach made the most odd sounds, but when I asked, he said it didn't hurt at all. He did complain about feeling the cravings literally in his veins. I've never actually witnessed someone going through withdrawl. That was completely scary. He wanted to have a blunt. Make it all go away. But I told him that this would be over, and everything was going to absolutely be okay. I promised him that.
What helped him also was when I came upon a forum support group for people withdrawing. They shared remedies, and stories. He felt better.
Before we knew it was 1AM and out of respect, he figured he'd leave. He's coming back today around 4. Maybe 5.
All his friends smoke, so this is going to be a battle. But I know he can do this.


As for Photography. Yuck, I Suck. And I'm on a different computer, so no uploads for the moment. However, I have news for Brushed. I sent someone an article so she can send a picture that goes with it, and I have me a new Fashion Blogger (yay) Plus I'm putting up Steph's blog. =) She made a pretty button for me and put it on hers (teachstephtobegood.blogspot.com) I love her. She's awesome. Her blog is so good, too. =D
I'll be joining stumbleupon. Both for finding sites, and promoting mine. Let's hope this works =D