I have a prescription for Lorazepam. The bottle says take two daily and no more than three, but my psychopharmacologist Dr. Lind told me to take it as needed, and not everyday. O_o confusing much? I'm going to listen to Dr. Lind. It's for when I panic. I don't want to get addicted to the thing by taking it everyday. I don't panic every single day, because I don't go outside every single day. See how that works? Okay. Truth is, I'm really afraid of taking Lorazepam. It's not like the other stuff. This one's in the Valium family. Which means possibly people can use it to get high. I don't want to be addicted! I'm weak, I'm already prone to addictions. I hope the first time I need it, my mom is around. I am sooo not taking that thing when I'm alone. Dr. Lind was going to prescribe me to something else that I'd be taking everyday, but she changed her mind. She always changes her mind. It makes me insane. And can you believe she told me to lock my cat in the bathroom all night? Is she insane?!
As for my website, I finally fixed my FTP problem by doing a system restore. So yay me, I can update Brushed now. The bad news is, now my computer is a little slow. Although, I'm hoping it's just because the files are being tranferred from my computer to the site right now.
Getting visitors is super hard. What's even harder is getting the visitors to come back. And actually like, submit stuff. Okay, I have poems. Yay. Whatever. Now I want people's opinions. Like actual opinions, and stories. It's really hard to get girls to contribute. I don't know why? But I'm not giving up. I want to do this, dammit!
Now, here's a picture. It sucks, but it's totally better than the nothings I have been giving you. (even though no one is probably reading. Whatever?)
I can't quite remember what the medicine they had be on was called....I don't think it was Lorazepam though. I didn't like my medicine. It made me feel better but, after I took it, I laid in bed for days afterwards because the medicine had made me so lethargic. I was okay, I wasn't freaking out and crying anymore, but I never left my bed. So I quit taking it.
ReplyDeleteBut don't just shun your meds. They might work a bit better than mine did. And I wouldn't worry too much about getting addicted. As long as you're not popping four or five a day, you'll be fine.